It's going to sound like a silly reference, but it is the best thing I can think of. Have you ever seen the movie "Matrix"? I saw it for the first time not very long ago, when it aired on television. When I saw it, I thought "Wow. That is just like being an Aspie. I wish I could give everyone that pill." For those of you who have not seen the movie, I will give you the pertinent information. It is based on the premise that the chemicals produced by our bodies are food for a machine which produces mass hallucinations that create what we know as reality. So the bodies are encased in some sort of fluid and stay there in a comatose state. But there are a few who have these pills they take in "reality" and it wakes them up. They then get to see what real life looks like. Instead of the color and variety and beauty of the dream world, everything is dull and gray and the food is bland, but sustains life. Some wish they could go back and forget they had ever seen reality, while others are grateful for the freedom of the truth.
This is Autism for me. I don't see what everyone else sees. If I can sense it with one of my 5 senses, it isn't real to me, and frankly, matters to me very little if at all. I feel like I have taken the pill and most of the world has not. I see what is important. Many of my friends get frustrated with me because they will be talking with me about a problem and, instead of consoling and comforting, I cut to the core. The truth is not pleasant and usually means quite a bit of personal growth, pain, and work. But it is the truth. If they didn't really want to hear it, they would choose to talk to someone else about their problems.
So, to those of us with Autism, we see what we define as reality. We are like the main character (going back to Matrix analogy) who is in the dream world and can see everything for what it really is. People shoot at him, attack him, and try to kill him in various ways. They are unsuccessful because he knows the truth. He knows that none of those things are real and they, therefore, are not able to harm him unless he believes they can harm him.
You see me and my kind as someone you need to defend. You see us as in pain and being mistreated and misused. I see you as worrying about something that is silly to me...it can't hurt me because I know it isn't real. I don't believe it can hurt me and so it doesn't hurt me. In the movie no one worries about the main character because he is "invincible" to everything that they throw at him.
Autism is not a disease. It is a spiritual gift from God. It is to help us move forward to that next step. The reason so many have "Autism" is because we must progress. There is a cure for it, but it will not be found in a doctor's office or from an interminable number of hours at various therapists. It will be found as we learn to live in harmony with each other, the earth, and our creator or higher power...whatever you want to call God, He's still God.
In the Holy Qu'ran, the Tao te Ching, the Bhagavad-gita, the Holy Bible, the Tripitaka, the Analects of Buddhism, The Book of Mormon, A Course In Miracles and, I'm sure in many other works of a sacred nature (that I have not yet read), there are things that speak of the future. They call it the final awakening, the last days, the end of times, the last evolution, and a myriad of other things. But they are all the same thing. They all speak of a new kind of person becoming part of our people. They speak of a person who is able to transcend this earth, it's view, it's materialistic pursuits, and see what is truth. The truth is that we who have Autism can see what is real, some of us more completely than others, and we prefer reality to the dream world and the slavery that comes with it. Unlike the movie, your reality is more like the drab, gray, no flavor, no color. What we see is vibrant and colorful, glowing and pulsating with life and color and sound. Every sound sets off a vibrational frequency that emits sound, color, energy, etc. Some are more attuned to it than others. But it is there, I feel it and occasionally can see it. I choose that world, but I stay in this one so that those in the true reality can have a voice here. In the movie, I would be the character with the pills; offering them to those who want to or are capable of seeing something more than they currently see.
What I believe may feel a little extreme to many of you, but here it is none-the-less. You can give your children drugs to force them to live in your dream world, or you can elevate yourself and then help those around you to elevate to the reality your children are in.
They aren't angry at your doctor's - to be angry would mean they think the answer lies in the hands of the medical world. The answer is found in scripture, with God. Until this is realized, you will either hinder your child's true nature, or help to free it. You are fighting the wrong demons. Again, as in the movie, the program is so good at conning you into thinking you can see your enemy and that the enemy is a person, someone to be fought. The enemy is an idea, a thought. The lie is so twisted into the truth that it is hard to see. But it is there. We do suffer from something that is stifling our true genius from being freed, but it is not physical and it is not chemical. It is the discord and chaos of this earth. You suffer from not being able to communicate the way we can and see what we see. The truth is that you are the ones in bondage. You are the ones who need to be freed. That is why we are here and that is why there are so many of us. There has to be enough to get you to listen.
I have sat with different persons with Autism who are non-verbal on many occasions. I feel them, they feel me. We exchange hearts, as it were. There is no need for the limits of language or the barriers of intellect. There is only heart, which is where the real truth resides in each of us. Our motives, our desires, our passions...those things are what are real and what create the reality we know. We see in the ethereal world now what you will see in the physical world a few years from now. Is this what you want to call a disease? Really?!
It is only thought of as a disease because it is not understood. Learn to see, and you will see. If your child is acting up, don't think on the physical plane...try to feel and sense what is unseen. We are all able to become sensitive to it. We just have to desire that sensitivity. Some call it energy, some call it aura, some call it the Holy Spirit...but truth is truth no matter what you call it. God gave our natural laws, so it makes sense that He would govern our world by them. It does not mean God does not exist, but rather proves that He does exist. I think this topic is a tangent. We can talk about it another time. Sorry.
Whatever name you give it, the Spirit is there, working in, around and through all of us. He teaches and guides and directs. You can embrace that and become aware of it, or you can continue to keep your heart hard and ignore it and pretend like it isn't real. But, as Isaiah said, "...add ye year to year, let them kill sacrifices; Yet I will distress Ariel." (Isaiah 29:1-2 in part) In other words. Go ahead, keep doing what you're doing. Add year to year, stay in your stubborn way. Keep following your path and doing the things that you think will help...keep killing your sacrifices....it doesn't matter. He has a plan, and with or without you, it is going to happen.
I have never heard from a parent of an Autistic child anything other than, "He/she is so powerful, and has been from birth. Such a strong spirit!" So, if that is the truth, then maybe we can take a lesson from those strong spirits. They are here to teach you something....but it's not what you think it is. They are here to help you learn to see God. To learn to live in balance and in harmony, so that final progression can happen....call it the final progression, the rapture, the last evolution, the second coming, or the last judgement....it is what it is. And it is where we are headed. How many need to be born before we will learn to see what is to be seen?
If you ache for your child, then do what you need to do to move forward. Make your heart a sanctuary of peace and calm. Your child will feel that and things will progress. Make your home a safe haven and a refuge from the imbalance and abuse of the world outside and your child will come alive and open, able to have more time in the "now" with you. Let that spread to your community and your children will become your teachers. "A little child shall lead them," "Children shall be your teachers" "And it shall come to pass in the last days, saith God, I will pour out of my Spirit upon all flesh: and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, and your young men shall see visions, and your old men shall dream dreams: And on my servants and on my handmaidens I will pour out in those days of my Spirit; and they shall prophesy." (Acts 2:17-18)These and a thousand other sayings are in all of those sacred works for a reason.
Will we wake up and heed the call our children give us? Or will we decide that only what I can see and touch is real? Will we work for the cause we have been told is here, or will we pretend that we know better than the facts staring us in the face? If you do not see, it is because you do not wish to see. Your children will show you. Learn to be still and peaceful, then they can help us merge our reality with the true reality.
Do you see what I see? It is the truth. Want it or not. Those who have eyes to see will see. Those who have ears to hear will hear. Those who do not wish to see or hear will be uncomfortable when what they have chosen to ignore is the very thing which determines their progression.
What do you want to see? The choice is yours. But the choice must be made. "Add ye year to year" or "Look, and live." It really is that simple. Your children are teaching you how, if you will listen to them. Quit thinking you know everything and what is best for your children. They are far better at knowing what they need and don't need - they have not yet learned to ignore their intuition.
I have to put the disclaimer, lest some nut thinks I'm saying you should neglect your children or something. Again, my reality is not your reality. I am speaking of the ethereal world. Do not spend your energy worrying about something that is not useful. If you are going to worry, use it to prod you into growth and becoming a being of peace. Light, peace, and love are the things that will loose the tongue of a child who has been given sight. The goal is to allow your eyes to see through my eyes and then the vision can become one. It can become our eyes. Your eyes see things that are necessary, things that my eyes do not see...there must be the vision of the past that allows us to lead into the hopeful brilliance of the future. You cannot step forward if you do not understand the path that led you to that step...otherwise, how do you know the next step is on the right path and going in the right direction?
Your eyes show me where I started. My eyes show you where we can go. Our eyes together can bridge the gap that separates the past from the future. Seeing through our eyes is the only way to be in the present, balanced perfectly between where we have come from and where we are going. Will you come and see with me? It is a glorious view!
*This is a blog about my own life and my own experience. If you choose to follow anything written here, you do so without any claim on me for problems or complications that may arise. I am not a doctor. I have no degree. I am not a professional. This is my perspective and experience, that's all. If you don't think you should do something on here, then don't.*